Here are some pictures that I really like.

Mama's house

" Everyone can build a house but it takes a wise women to build a home."


If you ask anyone who knows me you would find out that I am a very seasonal person.
If I had my own house I would decorate Spring, Summer, fall ,and winter.
Spring would come with bright colors yellow flowers.
Summer would bring lemonade in a glass pitcher with Lacy tablecloths.
Fall would bring Reds, Yellow, and greens. Sunflowers.Plad tablecloths.
Winter would bring cookies. A warm fire, blankets and candles.
But over the years I have found that what my mama likes and what I like are very different. I will admit that I have not always like that fact. I would like it if she would allow me to decorate the house when she does not.But I have found out something very importian. That my mama does decorate even if it's not with bright flowers and candles or fancy things. Instead she is very wise she does not love it so much that she would neglet us and decorate the house or fail to buy food because she just had to have those green curtins. Her style is simple and humble.
God has allowed me to see what gifts he has given my mama and now that I see them I truly love mama's house.
Like I said all our decorations are small and humble. But there mama all the way.I'm so thankful that God has allowed me to have a changed heart that instead of giving Mama such a bad time about the house. I now look at it and say wow it's pretty.
So I would challange everyone to give up theirselves so that they can allow others to be themselves. Maybe you'll come to love what they really are. I know that I have come to love my Mama's house and that I have come to love they ways she does things. I love that she makes our home comfortable to live in, and that she puts just the right amount of time and energy into making it a home.
I want to share some pictures of them.

Enjoy your life.

I hear lots of people complainning about their lives....... To be truthful I do it also. But I'm really trying hard to enjoy the gifts that God has given me in my life. I want to enjoy the people who are around me the most "My family". Because in this world today people are telling you how weird you are if you spend your weekends at home playing horses with your little sister.But guess what tell me something I don't know. I'm ok with being weird if it means that I can honest know that I have loved my family like God ment me to.
I don't have older siblings living with me at home any more. Sometimes I do want to be around someone that is my age. But I do have 3 young siblings who are wonderful. It's amazing how funny and caring they all are. If I had the world mind set I would be missing out on it all. Wade's willing to lead, and his servent heart. Jonas who hates dissapointing people ,and he loves when you show him affection even if he never seeks it. Leona is a JOY she is so determed to be someone special. Then there is my Daddy who is EVERYTHING a leader could be. He is gentle ,and both shows and tells us all how special we are to him. Then there is Mommy. She could be doing a million things outside the home ,but her disire is to be right where the Lord wants her, which is right in the middle of a family that needs her so much. I can't even imagine not knowing who my family is. Because I was to bored to be home. I love them so much. I would encourage you to get to know your family. Find out how they need to be loved by you. Each person needs are different also each person responds to love in different way. So don't give up on them. Take the time to love them. Here are some photo's from our sissi date.

God's Beautiful world

Here are some pictures of God's GREAT creation. Hope you enjoy.

What God can do.

Today was a special day for me . I quit my job last week so I had the privilege to stay in my pj's for a while to enjoy a cup of coffee and help my dear mother out. I also have the chance to go to a ladies lunchen. But that's not it the lord knows my love for plants and the decorating. So of course I signed up to help with that. When I was out gathering flowers the Lord once more began to teach me. I was looking for some flowers , and it's never as easy as the ladies in romantic movies make it seem like. So when I can across a group of about 15 beautiful loepens I was so excited. That was until I walk a bit more and seen about 100 of them. I thought to myself (maybe even out loud) this is what a christians life feels like. They see just a little bit of God , and we stand in wonder. But when we see

I'm sure most of you have many stories to tell people about all the times God has provided or when he was just there to carry you through. I know that my life is full of stories that end in how God was there for me. Many times I fail to share those because of the pain that it brings to me. I have a book that is unwritten because of the fear I have had. I call it sin a shameful horrid thing. It was taken a gift that I truly believe the Lord has intended to use. It has stopped me from doing what the Lord wanted me too. I'm sorry that it was taken me this long to really see and WANT to do the Lords work. I am sorry that I have lived a life full of Gods mercies and love ,and yet failed to show it with the world. I want to change I want to be a story that the world can read. I want to show Gods love to this world. I also what to encourage other people to share Gods love with this world too.

A great Promise

I want this to be a serious post. I know that I usely write about silly little children or burning cookies, but I have something to say and I pray that it will hit home to you like it did for me.
John 14:18
"I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you."
I know I have read this many times before. I also know that it never touched me the same way as today. I read this with tear filled eyes. I read this as a promise one that would never be forgotten one that would really happen. When I read this verse I can't even write how it made me feel. But let me try to explain it a bit.
I came from an abusive home. When I was a small girl ( 8) I could name every part of a Pot plant. Not only that I could tell you who would buy it from you, and who were the narks. I started smoking pot when I was 12 years old. I drank almost every weekend from the age of 9 to 14 (not just sips there were times I past out.) All this happened when everyone I trusted were out of it.Too high or to drunk to even care or understand where their little girl was. But that's not it I grew up in a family that was really messed up. I've always known it was messed up but just making a list of the facts really proves my point. 2 out of 4 of my grandpa's were well known perverts who messes with their daughters and many other little girls. One uncle is a registered sex offender,and the other 4 just do it and get away with it. Out of 8 first born male cousins 5 are just like their fathers perverts and sex offenders that never get caught. Here's the saddest part for me. ALL my aunts were abused by their fathers or uncles. My birth mom and step mom were abused by their dads. I'm sure all my aunts and both my moms promised that NOTHING would hurt their girls. But out of 10 1st born girl cousins 7 were abused. Yes sadly I am on that list. Sadly NO one protected me as they should have. And Although my father was not a pervert we never protected me never kept any promises. NO ONE ever did. Lies Lies that's what I grew up hearing. It wasn't very long until I started to hate and not trust anyone. I was so afraid of people that I live with sexual abuse and mental abuse for 7 years. I was a messes up girl. When the time did come and I finally found some one I thought I could trust I had a lot of issues. The Police took me out of that home. I then tried my best to trust people. The secretary from my school started the process of adoption. She was familiar with me and knew what I had been through. I do believe she loved me. I do believe that things might have worked out if I wasn't so scared, and damaged. Things with that family soon fell apart. They had 2 small children and I was stressful I needed more then they could give. So here I was a girl that was now 14 that poured her heart out to the Police, social services, and most of all a family. All these people had received my trust a trust that I had to search trust is something that I had to learn to do. Also all these people told me that they would help me. That family told me I would be their, and that they would never leave me. But months after they had told me their promises I was all alone. I was scared and alone. I don't know if you'll really understand how alone I was with out me telling you. I was taken from the only family I ever knew. I was now their enemy, and had to deal with seeing them at the store or anywhere in town. Because they got away with that nasty crime. I had no where to go. Yes I had a foster home, but the lady I was with took kids tell they turned 18 then out they went. What was I to do when I was 18 and scared? Who would hand me over to my future husband? Who would be on my team? And I knew the answer was no one.
Hahhhahahha that was until I walked into church. I was not happy about going the first time. I hated how everyone was happy. I thought God owed me not that I owed him. Plus he was a "father" a man the type of monsters that always hurt me. But there was always something that kept bring me back there. Something that slowly changed my cold damaged heart. 2 months after going I gave my life to the Lord. I knew I couldn't trust people, and everytime I would I was sadly disappointed. I had to trust that God would be different. He knew how little I really trust him. And he very slowly and gently changed that about me.
I prayed for a family for me. A family that love God and that would love me always. Guess what he gave me one. A wonderful Godly family.
John 14:18
I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you.
Maybe now you will understand why that is a breathtaking promise. Guess what? Trust him he WILL not disappoint you. I was not only an orphan because of the fact I had no family. I was an Orphan because I did not know God. But he came for me. He brought me himself before he brought me a family.
All this to say I love God. I love him because he's truth worthy. He proves himself to be true. He is a God of love, healing, and understanding. Thank you Lord. For being my rescuer.